My lips are chapped.
My eyes swollen.
It's not the allergies this time.
I miss Ziggy.
I hate feeling alone even when I'm not.
I hate that I have a boyfriend who selectively likes me; selectively.
I just want to be loved, to feel loved.
I don't think he has it in him; love.
I've tried so hard.
What else can I do?
Explain it?
He probably wouldn't listen.
Maybe...?
What if I tell him that I hear Jack Johnson and I smile because I think of him
And that the summer spent in a house that wreaked of cigarettes and had no power was my favorite summer ever
Or that when I have to sleep alone I sleep on his side because it smells like him
Or that I hate his laugh, but I really love it
Or that when he sings I fall even harder for him; every time
His hugs
When he lets me know that he was thinking of me
When he calls me baby
When he watches chick flicks with me and doesn't complain
When he lets me cry on his shoulder and tells me it will be OK
When he thinks of 'our' future
When he loves on my dogs
When he compliments me.
Or when he talks to his mom about me
When he feeds ducks with me
When he laughs with me
When he gets rid of spiders for me
Surprises me
Rubs my back
Watches scary movies with me
Lets me listen to my song on the radio even when he hates it
Compromises.
Talks to me about his day
Gets excited about his game; nerd.
When he cooks
When he cleans
When he holds me
When he gives me valentines day re dos
Hangs out with my friends
Gives me someone to brag about
But it probably wouldn't help at all to tell him that I hate it when he hurts me
Or talks down to me
Yells at me
Tells me I'm ridiculous
Talks about other hot girls and never says anything about his current girlfriend; me.
Talks about how hot his ex was; she really wasn't anything special.
Tells me he's done with me
Would rather play his game than spend time with me
Makes me cry
Makes me feel like I'm not good enough
Doesn't even give my family a chance
Hates everyone
Tells me what I should or shouldn't do
Yells
Tells me I'm immature
Looks at me when he's angry
Tells me he's done
Wants to hurt people
Puts people down
Why should I trust my heart with someone who can just disregard things/people so quickly?
It would be stupid on my part.
Get myself up just for him to be over it and walk out
I'm worth effort
A good relationship takes work.
Compromise
Effort from both sides
Dealing with insecurities
Learning together
Lucky for me, he did listen.
He listened and he continues to listen.
He listens and he talks, not yells, and he compromises.
He shows me how much he cares.
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